AFTER PLAYING AROUND FOR A WHILE I CAME UP WITH THIS SONG  LISTENED  REALLY GOOD THOUGHT ITS KINDA OF BLUSEY SO IT WAS NAMED I'VE BEEN DOWN SO LOW. I HAVE HAD MANY TRAGEDIES IN MY LIFE  LOST MY FIRST SON AT BIRTH AND I ALMOST DIED IN THE PROCESS .I ALMOST BLEED TO DEATH AT 16 GETTING MY TONSILS OUT WITH  TWO HUSBANDS DEPARTED FIRST A  CAR ACCIDENT SECOND MASSIVE HEART ATTACK BOTH YOUNGE AT DEATH MY SISTER'S DEPARTURE  AND LOTS MORE BUT I'LL KEEP IT SHORT . I STAY UP BEAT AND BOUNCE BACK DON'T LET IT EAT ME INSIDE . SO NOW YOU KNOW HOW IT GOT THAT NAME

I HADEN'T PLAYED OR EVEN SAT DOWN  TO WRITE FOR A FEW WEEKS.  GETTING THE URGE TO PLAY... JUST STARTED PLAYING AND THE SONG WAS BORN WITH  NO NAME IT'S A COMBINNATION OF THREE SONGS TWO OFF THIS ALBUM. MY SISTER'S SONG IN THE KEY OF A...ALESIA AND ONE I HAVE NOT RELEASED OFFICALY.  BUT IT'S  TO COME. I WAS VISITING MY SISTER ON A WEDNESDAY SHE WAS ABEL TO HEAR THE SONG  AS I PUT IT UP TO HER EARS. I TOLD HER I WROTE IT FOR HER. I COULD TELL SHE LIKED IT. WHEN IT WAS OVER SHE SAID THATS WILD AND DRIFTED BACK TO HER SLUMBER . ON THE FOLLING FRIDAY NIGHT I GOT A CALL TELLINDG ME I NEED TO COME SO I LEFT TRAVLED TO HER HOUSE. WHEN I GET THERE IT'S  EARLY SATURDAY MORNING. ALESIA WAS STILL ABLE TO SAY A FEW WORDS. I KNEW IT WAS NOT GOOD. ALESIA WAS IN SEVERE PAIN AND SLEEPING. I HAD A OVERWHELMING FEELING WHAT WAS TO COME. WE ALL TOOK TURNS WITH HER.WHEN  ABOUT FIVE HOURS HAD PASSED ALL OF A SUDDEN I JUMPEP UP WITH A CRAZY FEELING I NEEDED TO GO IN HER ROOM.  ONCE I WAS WITH HER I KNEW JUST WHAT I NEEDED TO DO I CALLED FOR DREMA HER MOTHER IN LAW. TOGEATHER  WE CHANGED HER BEDDING THEN DREMA LEFT THE ROOM. I CLEANED AND PAINTED HER FINGERNAILS I CONTINUED TO BRUSH  HER HAIR AND PUT IT IN A BRAID. I THEN FOUND A BOW HER GRAND DAUGHTER  LEFT ON THE DRESSER. I PUT IT IN HER HAIR. I HAD PROMISED HER TO DO HER HAIR. AFTER I WAS DONE I SAID LETS LISTEN TO SOME MUSIC. AT THE TIME THE SONG HAD NO NAME. AS ALESIA LISTENED TO THE MUSIC SHE STARTED TO CALM DOWN I COULD SEE HER  BODY RELAXING AND HER FACE  RELAX MORE AND MORE AS I WATCHED HER. I THOUGHT THIS IS NOT IT! I WAS VERY UNSURE NOT BELEIVEING WHAT I WAS SEEING . I COULD NOT SCREAM MOVE DO ANYTHING IT WAS LIKE I WAS FROZE IN TIME AS A TEAR RAN DOWN MY FACE I TOLD HER I LOVE YOU 4 EVER ... IT WAS THEN I REALIZED MY SISTER GOT LOST IN THE MUSIC ON THE RIVER OF SOUND AND DEPARTED HER BODY. NOW THE SONG HAD A NAME.. LOST IN THE MUSIC.  

LOST IN THE MUSIC

WALKING IN THE RAIN

HAUNTINGLY EXQUISITE

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                                        (DEATH AFTERLIFE RESEARCH SOCIETY)     

  I HAVE   DONE  MOST INVESTIGATIONS BY MY SELF MY SISTER AND SOME FRIENS. I DO COMMUNICATE  AND  CONNECT  WITH  THE DEAD. SOME SAY I HAVE A GIFT ...  THE DEAD SAY I SHINE ... I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK I DO KNOW I STARTED PLAYING PIAN OUT OF THE BLUE  IN JULLY 2021. I DO KNOW  HE OR THEY PLAY PIANO WITH ME . I GUESS THEY MISS THE THINGS THEY ONCED LOVED  WHEN THEY WALKED THIS EARTH AS THEM SELVES . NOW HE OR THEM PLAY WITH IN ME... I KNOW THIS... I FEEL IT AND IT COMES OUT IN MY MUSIC>>> FIND ME ON DISTROKID SPOTIFY APPLE YOUTUBE AND MUCH MORE . FOLLOW ME ON INSTAGRAM TWITTER TIKTOC . I DEDICATED MY FIRST ALBUM CALLED HAUNTINGLY EXQUISITE LOST IN THE MUSIC TO MY SISTER ALESIA. LOVE YOU 4 ​EVER.

IAN DESIRI' LALA BYE 

THIS WAS ANOTHER SONG I WENT THROUGH A BUNCH OF CRAP TRYING TO WRITE AND RECORD. I LOVED THIS SONG AND THE SOUND OF THE PIANO. AFTER A COUPLE OF MONTHS OF SCREW UPS OF MY OWN SONG ONE DAY THE RECORDING  WAS GOING SO GOOD THEN HE STARTED AND I KNEW IT ! THE SONG ENDED THE WAY YOU HEAR IT RECORDED.... I JUST LEFT IT THAT WAY. I WOULD STILL BE TRYING TO PLAY IT....  SOMETIMES HE IS JUST A CRY BABY BITCH. 

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PARANORMAL ACTIVITY

ANOTHER SONG WRITTEN FOR MY BABY SISTER. I REMEMBER THE DAY SHE CALLED ME AND SAID I ONLY HAVE FOUR MONTHS TO LIVE DAR. I TRIED BEING SILLY LIKE ALWAYS  TOLD HER SHE WAS A FIGHTER AND FIGHT.  WE WERE BEST FRIENDS DID LOTS  OF CRAZY THINGS LAUGHED ALL THE TIME. CEMETERYS WERE OUR PLAY GROUNDS. ALESIA DEPARTED BY THE SIXTH MONTH 

INFO/ STORIES BEHID THE MUSIC

THIS IS MY SISTER'S SONG IN THE KEY OF A

PARANORMAL ACTIVITY D.A.R.S (DEATH AFTERLIFE RESEARCH SOCIETY)

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​​THIS SONG CAME ABOUT I WAS BORDED JUST HITTING RANDOM KEYS. I CRACKED MY SELF UP. I LIKED THE BEAT OF IT  AND JUST STARTED PLAYING BOUT 10 KEYS ...IT WAS BORN . I PUT IT ASIDE LIKE I DO ALL MY SONGS. WHEN I  CAME BACK TO IT ... SAT DOWN THINKING HOW I WANTED TO WRITE IT  OUT  AND DEAD MAN STARTED SAYING THESE WORDS .... I DON'T KNOW HOW TRUE THEY ARE CAUSE HE CAN BE A SHIT HEAD JUST LIKE IN THE PIC HIS MOUTH NEVER SHUTS UP. I WOULD HAVE GAVE HIM CREDIT BUT THE COPY RIGHT OFFICE WOULD HAVE THOUGHT I WAS CRAZY CO WRITTEN WITH DEAD MAN. PARANORMAL ACTIVITY

D.A.R.S.

ALESIA

WRITTEN FOR MY SISTER  ALESIA WHO DEPARTED. WE WERE JUST TWO CRAZY SISTER'S. EVERY TIME SHE SPENT THE NIGHT ALESIA WANTED TO GO TO THE CEMETERY OVER BY MY HOUSE... DUMFRIES CEMETERY SHE SAID I GOT MY CAMERA DAR LETS GO AND WE ALWAYS LAUGHTED AT EACH OTHER . ONE NIGHT WE WENT IN THE RAIN ,COLD I DROVE IN WITH NO HEAD LIGHTS  MY STERING MAKING A CRAZY NOISE  DROVE AROUND TOOK PICS AND PARKED UP ON THE HILL SHE GOT A PIC OF A MAN WEARING A TOP HAT AND LIL BLOND HAIR GIRL OR BOY  I THINK IT WAS A GIRL.  DEATH WAS UPON US ...MY SISTER WANTED TO GO AND PLAY IN THE CEMETERY AND I SAID LETS GO.... SEE THE EVIDENCE. THAT IS WHY THIS WAS NAMED MY SISTER'S SONG IN THE KEY OF A 

I WROTE THIS ONE DAY JUST BY DOING NONTHING AT THE PIANO. WHEN IT WAS COMPLETY WRITTEN I THOUGHT WOW IT'S BEAUTIFUL MUCH LATER I CHANGED THE NAME SEVERAL TIMES. I WAS JUST NOT FEELING ANY OF THE NAMES.THEN I CHANGED IT TO IAN DESIRI' LA LA BYE  DUE TO THE FACK IT SOUNDED LIKE A BEAUTIFUL LALABYE SEE I LOST MY FIRST SON AT BIRTH.  IN HIS MEMORY THIS WAS BORN .

ICE COLD

I WROTE THIS LIKE ALL THE SONGS HE OR THEY MAKE IT IMPOSSIBLE AT TIMES ! FINNALY GOT IT RECORDED AND REALLY LIKED IT THOUGHT IT WAS BEAUTIFUL. AFTER WEEKS I FINALLY NAMED IT WALKING IN THE RAIN . THE SONG REMINDED ME SO OF OUTSIDE IN A STORM ... NOT A CARE IN THE WORLD WHEN THE RAIN IS COMMING DOWN ON ME AND OF COURSE DEAD MAN OR THEM ARE WITHIN ME  WALKING IN THE RAIN. IJUST TOOK THESE PICS ON MAY23,2022 

 MY ALBUM IS ON THE RIVER OF SOUND RECORDS FIND ME ON  DISTROKID  DEEZER SPOTIFY APPLE MUSIC AMAZON MUSIC YOU TUBE PANDORA ITUNES AND MORE

DON'T YOU BE AFRAID

I'VE BEEN DOWN SO LOW 

NO RHYME OR REASON DEAD MAN PARANORMAL ACTIVITY

THIS SONG TOOK ME A BIT TO WRITE AND RECORD CAUSE I WAS HASSELED BY DEAD MAN. I HAD BEEN TALKIND TO MY FRIEND WHO IS ON HOSPIC AND VERY SICK. SHE LOVED LISTENING TO MY PIANO MUSIC. ONE NIGHT WE WERE YAPING ONTHE PHONE SHE TOLD ME I'M NOT READY YET  I DON'T WANT TO DIE. I SAID TO HER  DON'T YOU BE AFRAID  AND SHE WAS A FIGHTER SO THIS WAS WRITTEN FOR MY FRIEND ROBIN. PARANORMAL ACTIVITY

I WAS WRITING AT THE PIANO AS I DO WITH DEAD MAN JUST PLAYING NONTHING REALLY THEN I RECORDED THIS SONG IT HAD NO NAME. FEW MONTHS LATER I LISTNED TO IT AND LOVED IT.  WHEN I WROTE THE WORDS I WAS LIKE THATS HAUNTIINGLY EXQUISITE JUST THE SOUND OF IT WAS HAUNTINGLY AND  IT WAS BORN. MY LYRICS WERE  SORTA LIKE OK HE MUST OF SMOKED CIGARS AND PUT A PIN IN HIS MOUTH AND WOULD WRITE WITH THE LEFT HAND THATS  WHAT I FOUND MY SELF DOING AND I AM RIGHT HANDED. HE IS A BIT OF A CHARMER AT TIMES OR HE THINKS.